These are historical times. We are witnessing the devastation that this pandemic has caused all over the world. People everywhere have been effected. Hundreds of thousands of people have died and millions are infected. Millions of people have lost their jobs or have become homeless. Places that a large number of people are in close quarters such as prisons, nursing homes, factories, refugee camps they all have been hit hard with the Covid-19 virus. But wars haven’t stopped, the colossal migration of people from war torn countries hasn’t stopped.
And somehow life goes on. People still get married, they still have babies. Politics is being played and misused, elections are being run and people still die from other diseases than Covid-19.
We have been staying home since mid march. We go out only for food, groceries, medication and gas. We also order groceries and food from restaurants and it’s delivered.
Most people are tired of social isolation and they miss human connections. Some people who have to stay home have started new hobbies. People have taken up bicycling, gardening, baking and walking.
I personally feel lonely, I feel down and listless. I can’t motivate myself to do anything. I feel that I am waiting for something to finish or start and then I will start living my life again. Honestly I wasn’t very happy before the pandemic but now its much much worse.
April 8, 2020
Mourning
I want to go to a mountain top and scream
And scream and scream and scream
I want to take a sledge hammer and strike
The rocks and shatter them all to smithereens
I want to pull on my hair
Collapse on the ground
And weep and weep and weep
I want to wrap by body in a black shroud
Get on my knees
Go from here to the tallest mountain
And cry and wail and beg for mercy
If there is a God maybe she takes
Pity on us and stops this slaughter
Maybe we need human sacrifices
Lets round up all the war mongers
The people who have committed crimes against humanity
Weapon makers, tyrants, dictatores
Corrupters, polluters, perverts
And offer them to this God
My heart is broken
Our hearts are broken
We are all in mourning
For the thousands who have perished
To this evil virus
